So close I can taste it.

I have written 48,430 of 50,000 words. I am now 96.86% done! no frills wordmeter

Of the good and of the bad.

Of the good: I finished NaNo just now.
Of the bad: I'm having Caddy put to sleep, probably tomorrow. 

I spent the night with him, I watched him.  I now know that the doctor was right, that he was trying to tell me right from the start that the chances that this was a tooth issue were kind of slim, but of course I wasn't hearing any of it.  Now I'm certain that Caddy is a much sicker little guy than I ever imagined.  I've done some googling on the problem and none of it sounded good.

I can't torture him and I can't keep him here just to ease my own feelings.  I have to do this, and quickly.  What I want to say is this:  I don't really want to discuss this.  Good wishes are always welcome of course, but please no private messages asking how I'm doing and am I certain.  I'm okay with it and I'm certain.  Please don't ask.  Just wish him a quick and easy passage, will you?  Because I don't want my little guy to hurt anymore.